One kind

Why you're always acting one kind after quarrel??
I'm bored...
There is no other way I can face??
Frustrated...
I'm sick of these...
I'm ain't the perfect one, but i'm not doing anything wrong either...
So please...
Consider me as a human...as a man...
Not FREAK....

Meet him for the 2nd times in penang...

My mentor..
Mr Anthony Tan..
Out with him is a great lesson of life...
Learn things which couldn't get in our lecture..
For me, he is a very greedy man...
however, this is what keep him going to be successful all the time...
although this time he brought a car which he didn't wanted so much...
I could see that somehow, or am i know too well about him??
Once again i have to leave penang soon and I shall greet him what??
Hey ah sir, wish you have a better life??
He got what he wanted...somehow...
Hey ah sir, wish you earn more money??
He got kinda a lot of money...
Hey ah sir, wish you faster get married??
He is a....
haha....
Anything...Ah sir...
Thanks for being my friend and been my ah sir...

I'm A Lier...

I dare to say that I'm living in a world of lies...
A lie to cover myself from the real me to the world..
to everyone around me...
I'm a faker to myself...
I'm hurt but i pretend to be strong..
I'm alone but i pretend to be joy...
I'm crying but i pretend to be laugh..
I'm sad but i pretend to be happy...
...
I'm fake for???

Manchester United Rox...

Hurray...
Manchester United won...
Anything for the day??
Nope..
A chat with my sweet girl??
She sleep before I feel like chatting with her...
Ops...
Once again...
I missed the time...

Dato?

There is an honor of Dato in Malaysia,
Before it comes to you,
who will you think about an honor of Dato will give to?
A person who being honor for supposed is a very powerful person..
which he have some authority or any special attitude in his carrier..
Somehow, I met with some of these dumb F***...
This morning...the 1st customer in my mom's restaurant..
Dato Blah Blah Blah...
A little late of service of me get his sarcastic words...
Owh, come on...
You step into my den and tell me what to do??
You're just a customer for me...
You are even with others...
Yeah, you got the honor of Dato in front of your name doesn't mean you're BIG...
So I don't give a s**t about what you say...
So Shut the F*** Up...
Honor is meant for respectful person, not these kind of Dumb F***

Christmas Eve...

Christmas is a celebration for everyone i think...
No matter what kind of people you will also seen around town..anywhere which have some countdown.
when the time I seen anyone sure I'll wish merry christmas.
but the one I wish tell you "Merry Christmas" is you..
Do you know that??
I don't try to think about what I'm gonna do when I see you...
For me, you're just stunning...
Anyway, it's a great night...
I like it...
Reach home on 3:46 a.m.
What a night...

X'mas?

Speechless for this X'mas....
anyway, it doesn't seem to be any important to me..
I'm not a Christian...but somehow it also doesn't give anything for me to celebrate...
should say i never really celebrate for it...
just a meal which will be more better than the normal days...

A drive back home

My friend always share opinion with me,
he is really my lifelong buddy...
he knows me very well..
somehow he reads my mind..
and today i stood up here to say thanks for this dude....

The Match

11:55 p.m. 21 of dec...
Arsenal vs Liverpool
come one...this gotta be fun..."what i thought before the match start"
ends up...god damn match after second half red card for arsenal player...
swt....

Quotes..

演技要求完美，可得众人赏心悦目，
感情要求完美，只得自己遍体鳞伤。

完美主义者，
你懂这道理吗？

腐败的社会何时会改变？
少年人出来社会工作都患上了公主病，或者王子病。
你说这些责任该推给谁？
家长？
教师？

自己想想再把苗头指向谁。

Sick...

Why people have to sick....
Hate to be sick....

How lucky I am to have you in my life...

Somehow i know that what i always do doesn't seen to be much good for you...
You're important in my life,
When the time i be with you i feel great..
I feel you're happy...
And I know it...
But why just time makes us apart..
The time goes by and I don't even know it...
In my life...i wish....
I wish that i could turn back to tell you that I love you...
In the moment where I feel passionate..
In the moment when I need you right in my arms....
Sorry that i'm late...

17 days left??

17 days left to be at penang,
started to have the feeling of unforgeable...
i wanna be at penang to study...
can ah??
I miss those days with you..
I miss those days with my family...
I miss those days with my friends...
but the thing i most wanted is to be at penang...
Oh god,
it's time again to go back there...
What to do???

Boredom, Freedom, Joyful.

Bored of the life of everyday is like the day before....disgusted..
Freedom, gets me rest, out of burden...but i'm missing you...
Joyful, I enjoy to be live in penang...but i can't see you soon....

Do you still remember?

28 Of May, 2006
My 1st day of UTAR life.
I struggle much for moving forward,
tears were drop, the pain for leaving home...
I'm homesick...
I'm all alone, that is the time I know that I'm all alone,
I came along so far from hometown,
All by my own,
Discover KL all by my own,
Look thru all the unfamiliar faces, unfamiliar roads, unfamiliar building, unfamiliar environment,...
I hate the things which unfamiliar to me,
when it comes 1 by 1, it's fine, but it's all unfamiliar...
Make me the feel of I'm freak...

Count from the day,
It's 1 year and 6 months and 20 days....
It's been awhile huh....
The day I get out from house, and the day I am here is totally different...
Hey friends, Do you feel different?

My Thoughts, My Believes

Before I start to write anything,
I state here that I'm not offensive to anyone when i write this blog.

A sudden question from an unknown in facebook,
Do you believe in god?
Here comes my mind spinning for answer, although I'm not that believe in anything...
What is the thing makes me believe to survive in this life or even in this world..
And at the end my answer would be $$MONEY$$...
I know that somehow others will think or even criticize me as materialistic person.
I'm here just to speak out my word, we are living in a world of realistic, why can't we face the problem? Everyday we wake up for living and yet we are doing everything to make money.
Maybe some people would say that he live his life to be more colorful and makes good to mankind, but ends up you still need money for living, need money to makes life greater, not to say a huge amount of money, but you still have to pay for whatever you do, meals, travel, daily usage, whatever you do, you have to pay, have a normal meal, healthy, which could be a little bit tasty, how much would cost you per day for each person?
Due to some personality of someone I met for, he live his life in a very mean way, what i trying to tell is, he is a very stingy guy, counts every single thing in receipt when we buy some daily things together.
Is this show that he is totally a bad attitude, when we say:"Come on, it just a few cents, no need to be bother." He still insist to pay back, what to do??He is just doing for his living, he care for what he want, he likely to move forward to have a great life...

Talk about believes,
God?
Now is the time which when we suffer the economic crisis, do God know how do we do now?
Do HE pay for the consequences?
I say, Come on, this is the consequences of mankind, it doesn't bother any God, it just human who doing this mess.
Somehow Mother Earth is the only "GOD" that we should though of, cause the Earth "do" anything upon its wish. Otherwise, any other things or phenomenal happened is only caused by human. For instances, land slide, breakage of ozone layer, global warming, and etc.
These will happen only if human does anything to the earth, and this is what we paid for the act.
So live life to the max...

Though of Ron, Free Thinker...

I'll be there...

I'm scared,
I'm coward,
I'm out of my mind,
I'm ruined,
I'm lost,
I'm lonely,
I'm missing you,
I need you...
But whenever you need me, just tell me,
Cause I'll be there for you..
I know that you're lonely somehow, and you're scared to be hurt,
I know that you're scared of alone, and when your lights turns on make me think of you,
worry of you...
Am I bugging you too much??
Tell me so if I am...

How much I missed you...

Day by day,
I miss you,
Hours by hours,
I thought of you,
Minutes by minutes,
I wish be by my side,
Second by second,
I wanna tell you how much I love you....
Girl,do you know that i love you....

New??

Hurrays....my new shoes.....

I can't get you girl..

You drives me crazy all about you..
but somehow you're holding back when you together with me..
or even you think others when you together with me...
sometimes you gets me going to nuts to think what's in your mind..
sometimes you gets me heading to your heart but you leave me fall from canyon after that...
sometimes you gets me or you don't??
girl...i like you...
get me??

给她的一封信

学会了写blog，也学会了把心情写进了blog。
想写封信给她，
你不知不觉的走入了我的世界，也不知不觉的偷走了我的心。
可能你不懂吧，但是对我来说你就是最特别，最好的那个。
我不懂你的心，也不懂得怎样去关心你，让你看不到我对你的关心。
我很失败吧，有时我真的很想你在我身边，但是我心中的痛就不想让你知道。
因为我是个怪人吧，所以不会随便把心中的事告诉任何人，眼泪就往肚子里吞，
我真的流泪哭的时候是不会有声音的，那也都是7年前的事吧。
现在的我也有流泪的时候，只是碰到心事时吧。
你可能没有见过我真正伤心的时候，
但我想告诉你，失去你会是我最痛的时候。
谢谢你，因为你没有在我眼前消失。
现在你得到你所要的东西了吗？
愿你听懂我的心。。

知足

知足？
人会知足吗？
当你拥有了一样你想要的东西或者时光。
你会知足吗？
你会满足吗？
人是贪婪的，
人是自私的，
人是险恶的，
人是不好的，
你同意吗？
想想自己的所做所为，
想了才答这问题。。。

Winner???Or Loser??

She got what she ever wanted...
My dream is also coming true...
I doesn't seems like want to have her, but just want her to be happy than any other girl...
Somehow she doesn't think about me either...
Anyway, i'm still doing it cause i think that the juice is worth to squeeze...
Cause win or lose makes no different...
The effects comes to be the same...

A Strike By Her...

A message was brought by her....
That i'm out of her way...
Good for me..
Best for her...
but you know what girl...
i'll hurt...please let me cure before i get strike...
and i get you girl...
i get you....

Life, Not Living

This is a song which performed by Dance Yourself to Death.
I really like this song but no matter how hard i tried to find this song but i still failed...
Just by the title of the song, so meaningful, life, not living...
In fact it is fucking right...we live our life not living the life....
Means we live our life with driving our own dream...
So this is the message i always tried to interpret to all my friend....


My stupid face which captured by tze yee....thanks to tze yee that capture i'm living my life....

The Feelings is back..

Back to penang...
Which i don't really realize that i'm supposed to back at here...
however, there are a few things i wanted to share at kl..
some feelings and some emotional react to it...
someone is making me in that way which i wish that she would know that...
someone is making me looked like fucked up and that would be my friend from penang...
someone is making me confused which i prefer not to mention him cause he is my best buddy..
someone is making me look awful cause she is the one for me...
but what the heck...
I live my life...
Not living the life...

When I'm going to heal??

有时侯我不懂我该怎么办..
有时侯心痛的时候需要一个人给我拥抱..
我该跟谁索取?是你吗?
有时我真的很害怕面对你,不想让你看到我脆弱的时候..
但我又很想很想拥有你的拥抱...
我该如何?
很想让你知道我的痛..不过又很害怕...
有时我都只能把眼泪往肚子里吞...
好痛...

Do you miss me??

Hey...
I'm leaving kl...
Back for penang...
Will you miss me??
Will you hoping to see me everyday??
If you want for....just tell me...
I would be by your side everyday day by day...
Listen to you everyday...
No matter whatever happened or whatever you do to me...
I just want you to be happy...
I know that i couldn't bring anything much for you...
I know that i'm not the type of guy for you...
But i wish that i could give you all my best...
I will always be there for you...

不寻常的快乐

昨天去了sunway,回家的时候去了打桌球。。
不知不觉下起了雨，没办法回家，只好在steven corner呆了一阵子。
雨停了，我也开始走回家，
突然间，雨又变得大了。。
倾盆大雨，好突然哦。。
停在我家附近的马来挡，
我在一旁试着不让雨水滴到我，
不过那些马来人却很喜欢淋雨的滋味，
他们竟然洗车，可能他们不知道用雨水洗车只会让车子更肮脏。
但他们那种心情竟然可以那么开心。。
我看了也想淋雨回家。。
我又用雨来遮藏我流泪了。。。好吗？

你懂吗？

我很紧张的，你知道的吗？
不要让我这样好吗？？
我很慌张的，你知道的吗？
不要让我这样好吗？？
我很无奈的，你知道的吗？
不要让我这样好吗？？
我很悲哀的，你知道的吗？
不要让我这样好吗？？

我不懂为什么我会这样。。。
但这就是我，无论什么事都好，我不想再让你流泪。。
我的苦，我的泪，都会往肚里吞的。。

只想写中文

最近我都想写中文，可能这是我跟你聊天的语言吧。。
不知该怎么说好，你似乎离我越来越近。。
又似乎离我越来越远。。
我捉摸不到你的心，你懂我很想告诉你说我对你的感觉。
可惜。。。
求求你，听清楚我的心声。。
听清楚我心碎的声音。。。